Begin again

and when that doesn't work, begin again again

I.

I’m very bad at meditation. But I get the idea. When your brain starts to wander to this or that, you’re supposed to not judge it or get flustered, but simply bring it back and begin again.

II.

I’ve been really exercising properly for like 6 months now (an upcoming birthday with a 0 at the end will do that to you…) but there have been several times when I had one delicious night of chips and queso and two days of rest and thought to myself “that’s it I’ve failed I’M NEVER EXERCISING AGAIN.” Friends, it was close… But so far I’ve been able to summon the thought: Bree, just begin again.

III.

I think all the time about the kind of leader I want to be and sometimes I’m not it. Did I let the team spin too much? Did I miss a cue from someone that they were frustrated? Did I make space for everyone’s voice while providing momentum? We have a series of beautiful “and” statements at SYP that describe our culture and ways of working and one of them is “declaring and discovering”. The notion of the “and” statements is not that you want to split the difference, but rather know when and how to move between them. For example, when to say “Let’s light a bonfire and kick around new ideas” and when to say “This is the hill! We ride at dawn!”

I don’t know if I got it right yesterday, but I’m lucky enough that I woke up this morning and I get another go at it today.

IV.

What would you like to begin again?

(rhetorical sort of, but also you can tell me for real in comments or dm if you like)